Whatever it takes...

"The moment you become afraid, is the exact moment you quit trusting God"

I guess since I've been raised in such a "faith-based" home I more often than not rely on God's help. I wouldn't like to think I expect God to swoop in and intervene on different situations, but in a way I do. I've said this many times over the last few years, but I will say it again... If my parents have showed me one thing in this life it was that God will always provide if you have faith AND ARE faithful. Yes, I know, we can't expect God to just clean up our messes or work when we ourselves have not. But I do know that if we truely need God, and ARE faithful, He will be there just like the poem "Footprints in the sand". Most often when we feel like God isn't there, He is, we just can't see Him or don't know it. Is it so hard to trust God? For me, most often no... but that may be my personality... to just let it happen... But for others... yes it is. And this is where I am at, with a heavy heart, longing for complete trust in Him. Completely trusting that HE will show others how to completely TRUST HIM.

First of all, each time I log into this thing, I tell myself, next week I'm going to be better at blogging... I am going to write more in it than I do now... but this still hasn't happened. Oh well... maybe next week!

I'm sitting here thinking to myself if each one of my post will be identical to posts last year this time. Being pregnant is ... well, different! I think I've been through every emotion today and its only 11:00 a.m. I've had tears in my eyes twice, been frustrated and mad twice, been excited and happy... sleepy and wide awake (not sure that those two really work as emotions but don't tell me or else you might make me cry HA!) Needless to say, I don't need a mood ring to tell me what mood I 'm in but maybe a mood ring to tell me *WHEN* my mood swings will hit... so I can plan better and maybe change my reactions!

I had my 15.5 week appt on Tuesday, Peanuts HR is 150 BPM which is good. I met with Doctor Jackson, and for the very first time in my life was so uncomfortable lifting my shirt a little bit to show my stomach. Last summer, and every summer before, I was glad to hop into a bikini and get some sun but now, just allowing someone to see me is almost painful. haha... *here goes the emotions again* Moving on, Dustin and I will find out on July 3rd at 1:30 pm what our Peanut is! If you asked me a month ago, I'd say its a boy... ask me now, I'd tell you I have no clue.... kind of exciting!

I think thats all from here. Dustin's been working hard, Chance has been sickly (but much better now) Pressley's been into everything... and I--- I am--- Emotional. :) Have a great weekend!

Pressley said her first word! MOMOMOMOMMOMOMOM.... I guess you can't really say it the way she does, I'll try to get an audio clip or something so you can hear it! Yesterday, I put her in her high-chair to watch some Baby Einstien while I did the dishes and she'd look over at me and say MOMOMOMOMMOMOMOM! :) and then turn back and watch her video. We went to Target and bought this high-chair that has 3 stages, an infant stage where you can semi-lay them down to eat, a older baby stage for regular use and then a booster seat for toddlers! Both Dustin and I are really glad we got it! I think Pressley is too, she spent about 10 minutes "inspecting" all the different parts of it. It was too cute! Today, we had some issues with the IRS and their unkindness and complete lack of good customer service... needless to say I was pretty ticked, and all I could think about is if I was snuggling with Pressley right now, everything would be okay... :) I think its so wonderful to have her in my life as a comfort...

So after 5 months of having a YMCA membership, I have finally got my stuff together (and it made it to the car with me) so I will be going to the gym after work today! I am supposed to keep my heart rate low and all so I'm not going to over excert myself, but I figured I could do the treadmill & stair stepper... but this just hit me, I FORGOT MY IPOD! How am I supposed to work out with out music! AHHH! maybe I can read? :)

some more old news... laced in with some new news! :) :) :)

Old NEWS

• prissy is military crawling now!
• she loves to get the dog bone, and when I move it, Couper brings it right back to her!
• she has 2 teeth.

New NEWS

• She is pulling up onto her feet trying to get things on the couch. So Strong!
• We had to lower her crib because of the above... we didn't want her flipping out!
• She got her first sunburn this weekend... yes I know, BAD mommy... not really... just NEW MOMMY! :) give me a break!
• I got a "spot bot" to clean up her little messes! YAY FUN!

Well, If you look back, WAAAAAAAAAAY BACK, you'll find a post from when I was preggers with Pressley about forgetfulness and how it is linked to Pregnancy! But this time I am thinking, I can't remember what I've said and what I haven't said so... If I repeat myself, get over it! :)

I had my 13th week appointment last week, Peanuts heart rate is 150BPM which is 10 BPM less than Presley's was. Terrie (Mid-wife) said that has nothing to do with the sex of the baby so don't even try and consider it! Ha! Everything else looked good, although I am having what the Dr.'s call spotting, its more like a full blown cycle. No Fun! Please pray for me about that! If you look at the last ultrasound, there is a pretty good size bubble of ... the vanishing twin that you can see is in the uterus with Peanut, but it will not effect anything negatively. So we go again around 15.5 weeks and meet with the Mid-wife again to go over, Birthing, Breastfeeding, and other fun items...

Dustin and I were thinking of going ahead and getting a 4-D ultrasound done around the 17/18 week instead of waiting until the 21st week like our Dr's do at Grace. I am really excited to find out what this baby is! Although before I had thought it was a BOY, now I am not sure... my hormones could be all out of whack because of the vanishing twin and thus having the extreme tiredness and nausea. So, maybe we will have another girl... CROSS YOUR FINGERS!

Onto another fun topic, pain meds... should I try again to do natural or should I just get the Epidural the second my feet hit the L&D room? that is something I am struggling with....
Here is what I'm thinking, I would love the rest that the epidural gives you before you get slapped in the face with being up all night with a new born, but at the same time... I just don't know. As painful as birthing was until I got the epidural, it was so beautiful. I know I am the biggest whimp but seriously folks, that pain is the most beautiful pain ever. I think what I will do is, excersize more, practice my breathing and practice focusing on things "pain free" and hopefully I will make it a little longer... now, as far as the local goes, I will be getting that. :)

I hope I didn't gross any one out by the paragraph above. Just stating some facts!

Well, I've been posting some "secret" posts for a while now and saving them as a draft for when the time came that Dustin and I were ready to announce it!  We are expecting again!  So here are the dates you need to look for to view Ultrasound pictures and other things!  

So after several days of spotting I was able to make it to the doctors office to make sure everything was okay!  And it was, "Peanut" is growing and is starting to look more like a little human than a peanut!  Doctor Cobb (my favorite doctor & the doctor that delivered Pressley) said that the baby was just gorgeous!  I will continue to spot due to a large pocket of blood left over from the vanishing twin but not to worry because it is normal & won't hurt Peanut.  We are a few days away from being 12 weeks and 1 week shy of being through our first trimester!  

Yesterday was one of the most sweetest days I've ever had... Dustin got us all up and fed and we got to church on time... it was raining though :(  In lieu, of Mothers Day, they were honoring 5 mothers with red rose corsages.  They all had different "titles" and mine happened to be "the mother with the youngest child" I was so honored to get to stand up in front of the church and be pinned with a beautiful Red rose!  I was giving an opportunity to say something... but being the last lady to say something, all those cheesy things had already been said... except for one.... talking about my mother.  I said how I was so thankful that my mother was such a Godly mother and that she focused on raising us right!  Now that I've got my soap box, maybe I can include those "cheesy" things the other ladies said... :)

We got the wonderful opportunity to have Chance on his 5th bday!  Dustin and I wanted to do something real special for him. He had mentioned a while back he wanted a 4 wheeler for his birthday but we thought long and hard and decided that he is still a little young for that and maybe we'll do it for his 6th bday... we'll see.  There is this super neat place in Asheville called "Fun Depot" that we decided we'd go to, it is a Christian company that is sort of like an indoor play-land with bumper cars, minature bowling, putt-putt golf, go- carts, rock climbing, an arcade area, batting cages, lazer tag, and a huge area that is like a McDonalds play land!  So needless to say there was PLENTY TO DO! He had such a great time with his buddies and his family.  Prissy enjoyed all the bows of big brothers presents!  Mimi & Poppy went all out and got him 2 aquatic turtles, Grammy and Papa got him a slip-n-slide and ants in the pants... and we got him several other small gifts and a BIKE!